Step 11 "Sought through..."

"Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out. "

This has been an amazing journey! I have been in the 12 step program now over a year... and I am really learning more about my God and who He is and what He can do if I let Him! I like this step because it is an ongoing one. The God of my understanding today is not the same one that I began OA with. Let me share...

Growing up I believed that God was in the heavens watching us from above with pen in hand... just waiting for us to screw up. Sure He loved me... but only when I was good... and I tried to ALWAYS be good! He was also one that was willing to forgive, but I had to ask for the forgiveness. I wasn't going to be accepted because I was His child. I had to earn that forgiveness. Well, that God is gone!

Today my God is one of understanding, of love, of forgiveness. He is here with His hands open just waiting on me to ask for His help! He is interested in ALL of my life... not just about when I sin. He is concerned about my finances, my health, my food, my family, etc. There is NOTHING that He will not do for me... IF I ASK! The key is ASKING and then waiting for Him to do the rest. I find that I can ask, but then if He doesn't answer today I wanna get in there and fix it for Him! (Sounds familiar?) Today I am working on just staying out of His way... standing here watching what He is going to do next.

I have found when I allow Him to control my life... all is well. It is amazing the things He will do when we let Him! Thanks for the new revelation God... I truly am blessed by Your presence!

Thanks for listening. May your step 11 come quickly!
Hugs...Cindy